A Health Update
(PLEASE NOTE: This is *not* a pregnancy announcement.)
As many of you know, we have struggled to get pregnant, both before and after Selah. This has long been a silent battle as far as FB is concerned, but I feel like transparency is important in this season as we've had lots of questions of late.
The past five-ish years have held lots of tears and grief, waiting and crying out to God for the fulfillment of our desire for baby #2. I have battled depression at times and it has been anything but easy. My months of infertility testing (in 2010-11 and again in 2013) were a huge rollercoaster of emotions that ultimately left me frustrated and feeling like a human pincushion, albeit with some answers. Not wanting to relive that, I've hesitated to be seen by a doctor again, especially since the closest specialist is an hour away. (School was obviously also a factor that left me without the time to devote to the many appointments such doctors require.)
Anyway, quite awhile back (one year? two years? who knows...) I heard about a local doctor who helps people with hormonal issues (which often coincides with fertility struggles) and takes a wholistic approach. I loved the idea of looking at the whole body rather than one isolated function, but I just didn't have the time to pursue it. But, in May, I felt like it was time, so I made a phone call and set an appointment with her. Today was that appointment. :)
Today went really well. I didn't get any earth-shattering information--it was a lot of sharing my history, talking through what other doctors have tried/checked/etc, and talking through options. I did blood work and I'll have another minor test in the next week. But overall, it felt good to talk to a doctor who is "on my team." I LOVE that she talked about "when" I get pregnant and not "if." It feels so odd tonight to sit and think through the appointment and actually feel understood, valued, and hopeful. So totally different. I am so grateful!
Side note, but I wanted to say a huge thank you to all of those who have been praying and standing alongside us in this season. It means so much more to me than I can find the words to express. There are moments when my faith is weak and hope seems dim; in these moments, it is these faithful ones in our lives who encourage me to keep on going, to keep believing. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
As many of you know, we have struggled to get pregnant, both before and after Selah. This has long been a silent battle as far as FB is concerned, but I feel like transparency is important in this season as we've had lots of questions of late.
The past five-ish years have held lots of tears and grief, waiting and crying out to God for the fulfillment of our desire for baby #2. I have battled depression at times and it has been anything but easy. My months of infertility testing (in 2010-11 and again in 2013) were a huge rollercoaster of emotions that ultimately left me frustrated and feeling like a human pincushion, albeit with some answers. Not wanting to relive that, I've hesitated to be seen by a doctor again, especially since the closest specialist is an hour away. (School was obviously also a factor that left me without the time to devote to the many appointments such doctors require.)
Anyway, quite awhile back (one year? two years? who knows...) I heard about a local doctor who helps people with hormonal issues (which often coincides with fertility struggles) and takes a wholistic approach. I loved the idea of looking at the whole body rather than one isolated function, but I just didn't have the time to pursue it. But, in May, I felt like it was time, so I made a phone call and set an appointment with her. Today was that appointment. :)
Today went really well. I didn't get any earth-shattering information--it was a lot of sharing my history, talking through what other doctors have tried/checked/etc, and talking through options. I did blood work and I'll have another minor test in the next week. But overall, it felt good to talk to a doctor who is "on my team." I LOVE that she talked about "when" I get pregnant and not "if." It feels so odd tonight to sit and think through the appointment and actually feel understood, valued, and hopeful. So totally different. I am so grateful!
Side note, but I wanted to say a huge thank you to all of those who have been praying and standing alongside us in this season. It means so much more to me than I can find the words to express. There are moments when my faith is weak and hope seems dim; in these moments, it is these faithful ones in our lives who encourage me to keep on going, to keep believing. Thank you, thank you, thank you.
I pray this will bring great results. We love you.
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