Monday, December 24, 2012
What a whirlwind year it has been.
This time last year we had just moved from Georgia to Kansas and had spent three months without a job. We moved into our house ten days before Christmas, but due to an Army mix up, we had no furniture or any of our stuff. All we had was one bag of clothes, a few pots and some food - the few things we had brought with us to carry us over the couple of weeks we expected to be without a home and job. We didn't have any ornaments or lights, and we had no paper to wrap gifts. It was strange.
We ended up going about 8 weeks without furniture (while I was 20+ weeks pregnant) and six months without a job/income. As much as I tried to rejoice in the true reason for the season, it wasn't easy. Maybe it was that I've become accustomed to certain things as I celebrate Christ's birth - lights, ornaments, beautiful gifts. In their absence, I had a really hard time feeling festive. Something was missing.
Throughout this past year, I've had many many times where physically, emotionally, and even financially I've felt empty, like something is missing. So many new experiences, fitting in to a new place, losing loved ones...none of that is easy. But what I have learned (or re-learned) is this: God is so very, very faithful. While He may not always do things the way I'd expect or even like, He will be sufficient to fill my cup, day after day. When I feel empty, if I run to Him, He'll give me all I need to keep going.
Tuesday, December 4, 2012
I think "ecstatic" could pretty much describe me right now. I started packing our closet and decided to try on some clothes I haven't worn in at least 3 years....and they FIT!! Only one dress was too tight to actually wear, and I haven't worn it in probably 5 years anyway. One of these days I'll wear it again.
My goal during my pregnancy was to be back to my pre-pregnancy weight by 3 months post-delivery, and if not by then, I definitely wanted to achieve that weight by 6 months after bub arrived. I was trying to eat healthy, and I had heard stories of people back into their pre-pregnancy clothes within a couple of weeks after delivery, so I was hopeful that the weight would just melt right off. I was also motivated to exercise regularly. After all, I hadn't gained that much during pregnancy - only 35lbs, which my doctor said was fine. But, what I hadn't realized is that breastfeeding, especially exclusive breastfeeding, limits weight loss, especially initially. It was actually only in conversation with a friend that I learned that your body "holds on to" extra fat while breastfeeding in order to ensure a quality milk supply. Interesting stuff - but I was still disappointed that I wasn't instantly back to my pre-pregnancy weight.
Well, the three month mark post-baby came and went, and I still wasn't where I wanted to be. I pretty much lost 28ish pounds within the first 2 weeks after Selah's delivery, but that last 5-7lbs was stubbornly hanging on. The exercise I'd hoped to do regularly just never seemed to happen, for one reason or another. I kinda just pushed losing weight to the backburner and figured I would worry about it when Selah was older and I had more time.
As the last few months have gone by, I've started to notice that I have lost weight. In the last month or so, I have been down to the last 3-4 lbs. Today I weighed myself and discovered I am only 1lb away from my pre-pregnancy weight!!! What an amazing feeling! The best part is that I haven't actually had to do anything to lose it, haha. I still eat the same, hardly ever get to exercise, and I'm still breastfeeding. I don't say that because it's a good thing...though it is kinda nice to be shedding pounds.
I am still about 15lbs from where I want to be - roughly where I was in the early days of college, and I know I will have to work hard to get there. But progress is progress, and today I'm just gonna celebrate the 34lbs lost, the clothes I can now wear, and the beautiful daughter I was blessed with in the midst of it all.