Chapters

I'm thankful today for chapters--chapters closing and chapters opening.
Today was my last clinical experience at a local school for my undergraduate degree and I must admit, it was bittersweet. Dropping my Education major felt so strange and was such an unexpected change for me. If you know me, you know I'm a planner and that I like to make a list and stick to it...so this huge shift has kinda rocked my world. I spent months deliberating over my decision, really thinking through whether I should stick with this degree or not. But, even as I have questioned my decision and asked God for confirmation, He has filled me to the brim with peace and sweet reminders that He holds my hand on this journey, wherever it may lead. I know that I made the right decision, it's just strange to watch as chapters you've spent over a decade on come to a close.
Ironically, today also felt like a fresh start. I had time to go eat lunch with my girl and it was wonderful to just sit and be together during her school day. I had the opportunity to talk with a fellow student about my upcoming semester and was excited all over again about the fact that I get to take fun classes as I wrap up this degree (sewing, workout class, voice training). My Abba gave me some sweet confirmation about our next child, which is something I've really been struggling with this past month or so. It's been a day full of reminders that my God is opening doors and opportunities even as other doors close.

There is just something beautiful about a new season, when all that was dead and dry has fallen away to give way to something fresh and green and new. This semester has been tough in so many ways, and I have had so many questions and frustrations along the way. Today I am thankful for opportunities to zoom out and see that my Abba is birthing something even in this difficult chapter.

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