Jump

For healing to come, I must be willing to receive. If my hands are filled with my plans and my pain, You cannot pour out blessing - until I let go.

So, I'm unbuckling my seatbelt,

I'm letting go of my security blanket,

And I'm gonna jump in faith.


It can't be about my plans anymore; they keep failing. It has to be all about You.

No more Rebekah "helping."

No more looking and thinking and wondering and planning.


It's Yours.


I lay my future, our future, at Your feet. Do with it as You will.

We will praise You.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Broken

It's a Saturday morning, and it's my birthday. And I wake up so excited to jump out of bed, because it's the day that I will hopefully get the best birthday present ever: the news that our next child is on his/her way. I bound out of bed, so much anticipation in every step. My cycle is seven days late, and with every fiber of my being, I expect to see a positive result. I walk out, and I am crushed. Another month, another negative test. Infertility has won again. All I want to do is go back to bed, curl up, and forget. Forget what it's like to want children. Forget how much the negative tests hurt. Forget that infertility is a part of my life. I want to just stop this crazy rollercoaster ride of emotions and pretend like I don't care any more. But I can't. It does  hurt. I hate hoping and getting disappointed, over and over and over again. And then the questions come. "Do you want more children?" "When are you having another one?" ...
Read more

How are you?

Image
So how are you? Well...(that's a deep subject) it's hard to say. Here, in this moment, I'm doing fine. I'm happy...I just had a wonderful conversation with my love, my house is mostly clean, it's peaceful and quiet. A candle burns on my coffee table and the scent wafts through my house. But, if you'd asked me 5-6 hours ago how I was doing, the answer would have been different. The answer would have been "Please give me some sanity and take my child." I wanted my hubby home. I wanted normal. I wanted a moment - just one - to myself. I wanted to be able to finish a project without a baby crying incessantly. I wanted to be able to be Rebekah, wife to Caleb, perfectionist, the one with the ultra clean house, the mom who had it together. But I wasn't. I didn't have it all together. I didn't feel like me. I felt like tired, frazzled, frustrated mama who most certainly does not  have it all together. The toys scattered all over three roo...
Read more

Handmade jewelry giveaway!

How to enter: Comment on the comment left by the person above you on this specific blogpost. If you are the first person to post, follow this prompt: "It was a cold, blustery morning, and all was still." Your comment should be a complete sentence and should continue the story. How long will the competition last? Right now, entries/comments will be taken until January the 15th. However, if there is not enough participation, I will extend the date. How will the winners be selected? I will be using random.org to select the winners. Notice I did say "winners" not "winner." There will be three winners of this competition, with each one receiving an item of jewelry. :) What kind of jewelry will be made? That's up to you! I will let you pick the type of jewelry (necklace, bracelet, earings), as well as the beads and design. :) More details will be issued to the winners. Is it limited to the US? No! Anyone can participate. :) If you have any questions, please ...
Read more