Two Steps Back

Today, we received some disappointing news with our adoption. We heard back from Zoe's House (the new agency we were pursuing) earlier this afternoon, and they told us that they have determined they cannot accept any adoptive families with children at this time. The reason behind that decision is that most expectant mama's want to place with a childless family rather than one who already has children.

While we understand the position the agency is in, our hearts are hurting. I wish I could tell expectant mamas our story, how hard of a journey it was to even have Selah, how much of a miracle her life is...that adoption was anything but an afterthought for us. Unfortunately, we do not have that option at this point.

This journey towards growing our family has been so long and so hard every step of the way. Nine years of waiting, hoping, believing, wrestling, and trying to hold on amidst the tears. It feels like endless years of grief, of sowing without reaping. I am so ready to see our long-awaited prayers come to fruition.

Trying so hard to cling to hope.

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